Monday, April 19, 2010

my best friend is better than your best friend...


I lead our prison outreach at church and tonight we had someone sharing her story of her friend. The story was of their relationship and how forgiveness played a huge part in their ability to grow closer together. My best friend (I will refer to her as bff from here on out :) ) was here this past weekend. She is truely my confidant. The one person that I can share everything thing with - knowing that I will not be judged but instead she will love me no matter what crazy thing comes out of my mouth. Brooke and I have been through plenty. I have made plenty of mistakes throughout our friendship. Her ability to forgive me is what has gotten us to where we are today. I truely believe that relationships that have the ability to withstand hardships are stronger because of it.

Our friendship kindof took a hit a few years ago. We didn't talk for months. We slowly started talking again after almost a year. I remember it just being easy. It was when Andrew and I got engaged that we started to really talk. She had gotten married 2 years ago and I didn't even know where to start with wedding plannin. As the few months before our wedding followed we became close once again. Her husband Josh was in our wedding party and was planning on coming up for most of the week before for all the pre wedding festivities. The last two weeks before our wedding Andrews mom took a turn for the worse. She had been diagnosed with her 5th cancer earlier that year and until that point we truely believed she would be healed. Exactly a week before our wedding Nancy died. She was the most amazing woman I had ever met - but that is for another blog. I remember talking with Brooke that day and without any hesitation she wanted to be with with me that week. She didn't have a ticket but got one, and 3 days later was here. The days leading up to the wedding she was the biggest help. I am fully convinced without her help and my other bridesmaids I would have gone insane. I was able to spend the time focusing on Andrew's family when I needed to and when wedding stuff came around I knew I would be taken care of. Not anyone would just drop everything and and fly hundreds of miles away last minute. That was the week I realized I would not let what happened before happen again. Through a crazy turn of events she ended up standing up in our wedding - that was completely ironic but looking back it was completely perfect.

Brooke and I are pretty much as opposite as they come... she is girly, me not so much, she was a dancer, me sooo not so much. The list of differences could go on and on. After I dropped her off at the airport I had tears in my eyes (and if you know me, this just does not happen) I was just overwhelmed by how blessed I am by her friendship. I am the first to admit that I am sometimes difficult, she knows this, but she still loves me. We have the most fun together and I am 100% certain that any person in this world would be blessed to be her friend, yet she choose me to be her best. She challenges me, she tells me it will be ok when it just isn't yet, she tells me when I am out of line, she tells me when someone else is out of line, she encourages me to grow, she makes up fun names for us like c3po and r2d2 and calls me her co-pilot, she sets an amazing example for so many people in her life as well as me. I find a much stronger and deeper value in having a few close friends - quality over quantity. Brooke is as quality as it comes. She is genuine. She truely loves people and loves helping and serving. I couldn't ask for a better friend. I am feeling truely blessed tonight. Thank you Jesus for the amazing people you have placed in my life!

~my best friend is the one who brings out the best in me~

Saturday, April 17, 2010

husband and daddy


Today I was thinking about how fortunate I am to have a husband who is a great husband - has been for almost 3 years. But a husband who is also an amazing father. To be honest, seeing him interact and play with Liam gives me an even greater love and appreciation for him. Which is pretty great if you think about why you marry someone. You hear all of the terribly romantic people tell you that you 'fall in love more every day'. Well I don't totally agree with that because there are most certainly times where I want to scream when Andrew doesn't listen, or follow through, or just is straight up being completely ridiculous. But it is 100% true that my love for him today (it's only 8:45am so the day is still young) :) is greater than my love for him 3 years ago when we got married. He is so silly with Liam, sings songs about kicking crocodiles in the head and swimming with jellyfish but LJ LOVES it! His face lights up when andrew smiles at him and plays with him. THAT is incredible. Right now I am feeling quite blessed by my family. I wouldn't change a thing. Life is good, mmmhmm, life is good. :)

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

just another manic sunday...

Sunday is always an interesting day for me. Andrew is out of the house early so I am home getting Liam and I all ready to head out the door by 10 for church. This past Sunday was Liam's dedication so I planned out the whole morning in my head of how it was going to work so I could get him ready - me ready (second day doing a hairstyle that doesn't include a ponytail) and also make sure the 6 guests that my husband said could stay at our house (without any previous discussion with me) were all taken care of as well. Liam decided he only wanted to nap for 20 minutes when it is usually two hours and we had two - one small, one waterfall - leaks in our kitchen. Liam is screaming (he just couldn't poop) my hair is now already dry without me touching it yet and I have about 20 minutes. Any other morning I would have said forget it and stayed home. Not possible when he is getting dedicated. Of course as soon as we walked in the church doors Liam was perfectly fine. Of course he was! I think this child of mine has this secret little deal where he trys to get as close as he can to driving me CRAZY. Sunday, he was very close.

The dedication was awesome - our Pastor did a great job and Liam may have even cracked a little smile. Maybe. :) One thing about being a mommy - your children always keep you guessing. I have learned to never feel so confident in having anything down because as soon as I do he changes it. It's just what he does.

Friday, April 9, 2010

mommyhood.

I have wanted to start a blog for a while and here I am finally. I'm excited to be able to share my thoughts and life with whoever cares enough to read about it. So here it begins.....

Tonight we started a new night for our jr highers. Liam and I went and hung out with all the students. It's so fun to see the students love on my little boy. We have Liam on a pretty awesome schedule and he now gets put down awake and falls asleep all on his own. So great for our sanity but I miss my times when he and I would just snuggle up and I would rock him to sleep. So I planned it all out so we could be at church for as much of the event as possible - I fed him at church and drove home at 8 - right when he goes to bed. As I took him out of his carseat to bring him up to his crib he was sound asleep. I brought him upstairs and couldn't help but snuggle with him for a bit. As we were rocking I was thinking about how crazy it is that one little boy can totally change my whole life. The love that a mom feels for her baby is something I never understood until it was me. He makes me a better person. He inspires me and he brought a whole new purpose to my life. I can't even express how much love I have for him. Being a mommy is the best job in the world.