consistancy

I saw another person make a blog post today and I thought to myself, I haven't blogged in over 2 weeks. Then I started beating myself up for not being consistant with this. I kept telling myself - you wanted to do this, you said you would blog at least once a week, why can't you just stay CONSISTANT. There are so many things in my life I wish I stuck to better. Our budget would be a great example, I can make a million of them but have the hardest time sticking to it! Working out would be another great example, I'm not going to loose the last 20 stinking pounds of prego weight if I don't work for it. Even time spent with my husband - our lives are so chaotic (especially now, May, June and July are the worst and best months for a youth pastor) and we never see each other. This has always been a struggle of mine. I have so many thoughts, ideas, dreams, and goals that I make it nearly impossible for me to follow through. WHY IS THIS? Why am I this way?



Then I started to think about things that are my 'non-negotiable' things. Being consistant in my faith, in my ministry, and with my family. These are mine. My son with know every day that he is loved. My students with know every day they are being covered in prayer. My family will know every day how thankful I am they are MY family. And in these things I have been consistant. So maybe my blogging has suffered, maybe my belly will NEVER be the same and maybe the next three months will be a long one for Andrew and I, but I know the things that will not have to change or settle for less. God has so clearly given me a heart for these few things, along with a mind that loves to dream. The things that I have put upon myself are nonsense expectations. Today I am reminded of this - as I continue to seek God's will in all areas of my life, priorities may shift and change as I grow but I can know that I am being the best version of me - the version that God has inteaded for me to be.



'I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.' Psalm 139:14