If you know me even just a bit, I try my best to be as organized as possible. I have been called anal and obsessive with my routine schedules and lists. The reason behind this is because I have a terrible memory and my mind wonders like crazy. I have very little ability to stay focused on things for any extended period of time. The reason for my anal retentive behavior is so I can keep track of and focus on the things that matter. Lately my focus has been off - well on, but at the same time off. Obviously when you have a child they become the main source of your focus. Then issue is I have been focusing on all the things that even 2 years from now will not matter - like all the little milestones that someone has decided should happen at some point in a baby's life and Liam still does not do. Like rolling, or really moving at all. In all reality things like this are very small in the big scheme of things. Two years from now weather my son rolls at 3 months or 6 months will not matter. Neither will his weight and height. I am fully aware of the fact that his stats now are not important (as long as he is growing and thriving well). I also recognize that my willing my son to do something will not make it happen any quicker. Although I know all of these things I still set my focus on them.
Today I am RE-setting my focus. I will focus on his smiles, laughs, and cute little rolls. I will stop focusing on the things I have no control over and instead focus on enjoying who he is NOW as I know this all will pass and I will miss my happy little boy who can't talk back and cop an attitude. :)
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